my journey

I don't know where to start so I guess the best place is the beginning. I remember the day just like it was yesterday. I was dealing with something so dark, but God was going to make it into something so wonderful. During all that I had been praying for God to use me. Guess what?! He answered that real quick! I remember the overwhelming feeling that I needed to go Europe. I had no clue where I would be or what I would do but I knew I needed to be over there. I kept asking are you sure? I talked to friends and Beverly jumped right on board. We went straight to our pastor. I am so glad that he is a man of God and asked the hard question to make sure we were doing this for the right reasons. I dug deep making sure I heard God and was not doing this to "fit" into my family. He showed me over 20 times that I am on the right path.

So the journey begins. We needed to start digging and figure out what we were going to be doing. We had no clue! Beverly talked to a friend and she hooked us up with a girl that lives over there. In 3 of her emails she told us about Y.W.A.M. I kept pushing it off thinking that wasn't for me but everywhere we looked I wasn't getting this is where you are suppose to be. So I decided what the heck and went to their website. As soon as I got on I knew that was where I was suppose to be. This whole journey has been such an experience. I'm not going to lie, this journey has had many ups and downs. In those hard moments God has shown me that this is where I am suppose to be! Will is preaching in Nehemiah. During a hard week Will preached from Nehemiah 4 and it was like it was straight to me. He was saying that the moment we decide to do what God has called us to do we will be attacked. I am there and am reminded of 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 "My grace is enough; it's all you need. My strength comes into it's own in your weakness. Once I heard that, I was glad to let it happen. I quit focusing on the handicap and began appreciating the gift. It was a case of Christ's strength moving in on my weakness. Now I take limitations that cut me down to size-abuse, accidents, opposition, bad breaks. I just let Christ take over! And so the weaker I get, the stronger I become." I'm not going to say I don't struggle daily or that I don't struggling letting go and letting God have control of this but every time I read this I am reminded that in those times that God is just showing off and that everything is good. Satan is scared of what He has in store and that makes me so much more excited to see what's in store during this time and while we are over there. I am beyond grateful for your support and love. It means more to us than words could ever describe. Thank you so much and please continue to pray for this journey that we are traveling on.

-Hannah